Not so good. But still managing....

Days are not going so well. Actually nothing to worry but still I miss going out. Garmi zada hoti hai so I can't go out for walk even. Fir kaam me hi busy ho jati hu. Anjali aur tumko reels bhejke accha feel karati hu khud ko... Feels like I'm still connected with you. Hope things get better soon. Kisi din itni pdhai ho jati hai aur kisi din apna ipad bhi nhi touch kar pati. Silly life. But I'll make through it. Waiting for admission to come. I want to do something. Exam date bhi nhi aari toh motivation nhi aara abhi pdhne ka. Hope it comes soon. Tumse baat krne ka bhot Mann karta hai but I don't use phone for a long time now. Accha nhi lagta. Kyuki koi reason banta nhi hai. Ab toh college bhi nhi hai na. Acha I have cleared my phone. Deleted everything. Kuch kuch save Krliya jo important laga mujhe. Still you keep photos with you. Kisi drive folder me save krlena. Mera phone update hua toh zada arrangements nhi kar payi mai. Still. Feels happy that you are good with family now. Accha lgta hai yr ki kisi ki life me itne positive changes aare hain. Isse upar aur kisi ko kya hi chaiye. Bs sab ke liye present raho. Baki sab ho hi jayga life me. Time spend karo. Moments banao. Enjoy Karo. Make them smile. That's the best thing you can do to your family and your parents. Hasao unko. Trust me accha feel hoga. 

Till then bye bye. ;)

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