Mai Ro Dungi!!

Aaj ka din was worst of these three days post-college. I was overly occupied with things I don't know why. Woke up jaldi at 730 cz mmy has to go at 830. When mmy left, I got freshen up, made chai bcz mmy ne parathe already bana diye thay. Then sath me dudh boil Kiya. Ye sab kaam hora tha toh socha raat ke itne bartan gande pade hain sink me plus subeh breakfast banane vale bhi bartan bhi thay so I thought of washing them kyuki no one was up then. Ye sab kaam ke bad I waited for a bit but then so gyi. El ghanta soke I woke up at 10. Baki log bhi uthe toh I had my breakfast with them. Mmy got back. Then ghar ka kaam. Jhaadu pochha and several other chota mota kaam ghar ka. Ghar ka kaam hone ke bad I thought I will sit for study but didn't make it kyuki bhaiya ne apne room me safai ka bol diya. Though I didn't do anything specific but had to stand with him for everything bcz he needs someone to talk... And yes that talking is again too tiring bcz you need to constantly use your mind. A proper deep conversation. Then I don't know from where did the time went and I saw 430 on the clock. It was like shit, i hadn't had my lunch and it's already a day gone. Then I ate my lunch, and asked everyone that I want to lie down now so they made me do that and I slept for one hour. Woke up at 7 and was feeling so bekar that my whole day is gone and I haven't touched anything. At certain moments I feel like crying but I can't and I know that. I can't even talk with you even if I want to. I wish ye time jaldi jaye. I don't like such days. My whole day goes with one thing in my mind that I don't want to frustrate anyone. I do everything as everybody say. After completing all the work with other people expect me to do, then I go for my work. It's difficult but I have to make it through. :)

Hope you are good, too! Just like me ;) If not, then be. 

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