No offence, but leave me alone.

Hi, writing this at 11 AM. Subeh after talking with you regarding your exam, blog pdha tumhara Kyuki subeh late uthi thi toh direct khana vagera banane me busy ho gyi thi. Raat ko neend nhi aayi. Felt jaise koi tension hai aur shayad thi bhi. 2-2.30 ke around soyi. Fir bhi 5.30 neend khul gyi aaj achanak pata nhi kyu, usually kabhi is time washroom nhi jati, aaj pata nhi kyu. Fir socha tumhe text kardeti hu. Bhot chahti thi ki tum aaj kisi bhi halat me exam do. I don’t want you to miss any chance. 

Acha laga ye sunke ki exam Accha hua tumhara. Sach bolu bhot Badi smile aagyi thi face pe. But fir mann pata nhi kyu Kharab ho gya ye sunke ki Baki log bhi aye thay exam dene. Rona nikal gya. Kahan Mai ek time pe sabse aage hua karti thi, aur ab kuch nhi kar paa Rahi. Sab log mujhse aage jaa rahe hain. Bhot regret feel hora hai ki why I didn’t appear for this exam. Isliye tumse baat krne ka bhi mann nhi hai. Yr Mai kisse baatein share karu ki Maine bhi form bhara tha, proposal bhi banaya but bheja nhi kyuki mujhe pata tha Mai exam dene nhi jaa paungi. Kisko share karu. Aaj bhot alienated feel ho rha hai. 2-3 din se Nikita tawan ka Khayal bhi bhot aara hai. Un logo ne bhi dekhe honge mere marks. Kisi me 15 kisi me 17…. Vo log bhi yehi soch rahe honge ki mera level kitna neeche hai un logo se. Bhot bura lagra h yr. I’m not jealous with anyone but it’s just the fact that I feel sad for my own position. And I can’t even tell my family that I skipped this exam because I didn’t want them to get disturb kyuki mujhe 6 baje nikalna pdta. I can’t even understand why the hell I filled the form. Pata nhi kya soch rahi thi. Mujhe kuch smjh ni aara yaar. Man ghabra rha hai bhot. Mujhe akelapan chaiye. I don’t want to talk with anyone, not you, not Sunit, not Anjali, no one. 

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